So, I talked to him. I told him everything. I told him how I feel almost neglected, distant from him, untrusting…I asked if he was ready to commit to JUST ME. Of course he said I was over reacting, stressed and imagining things. He got upset because he felt that I had no confidence in him and he didn’t understand why his word was never good enough. I explained that he has given me more than one reason to not trust him, yet I still stayed faithful. The I decided that today is a new leaf and that the ball is in his court. From here on out, I am trusting him completely. If he betrays that trust it is on him. He got upset, but I suppose this will be the deciding factor, right? I don’t think i can do more. It is now up to him to prove himself. I think this will work. It will help me finalize my decisions before we get married. It’s easier to walk away before than after. So wish me luck, everyone. I’ll keep everyone posted through the process.
I love this man and I suppose that no one really gets to choose who they fall in love with, but we can choose not to get hurt. He is a good person capable of loving. He is strong and everything that I want. all he needs to do is be open and honest with me, right? The keys to every relationship is communication and honesty…
